Needing some motivation

Hello hello hello,
 
                   How is everyone today? It's friday the sun is shinning and there is a lot of potential for it to be a good day. I hope you guys are all having a fantastic end of the week. I'm going be honest this week was definitely not my BEST week (as you probably guessed from my earlier blog entry) But I wanted to reassure everyone that I'm doing much better now. I talked with my friend and apologised because I know I've been avoiding her because I was angry with her, and you know what I don't know where are friendship will be in a month from now, or next year but I'm okay with it. I'm not angry with her anymore, I'm just at peace.

                  However... I am seriously needing to find something to motivate me in two areas.
        1.) My workouts, I just don't feel like working out right now. I know I know, mind over matter, but it's really hard to push yourself when you just don't feel like doing it. I think part of my lack of motivation in this area has been my lack of regular sleeping habits and routine this whole week. So starting tonight I'm going to go to sleep and my normal time and wake up and workout first thing in the morning.... Now i said I have to do it! (Wish me luck!)
        2.) My homework! Now who out there is in school?? Because you guys will understand how incredibly difficult it can be to motivate yourself to stay on top of your homework. It's so easy to find a million different distractions and I know i need to be focusing. What your tips or techniques to motivate you to do your work, and write your papers??

Have a fantastic last couple of days of September! I'm looking forward to October!
Infinite x's and o's
- A

Don't give up, Get up

Good afternoon all you beautiful people.

Fall has arrived, the cool weather has begun, leaves are changing color, it's a beautiful season. And yet there is this part of me that always gets sad when fall arrives. I guess it's because I watch as the leaves fall off the trees and it makes think they're dying. I know they aren't actually, and I know that it's just a season of their life and in a few months they'll be beautiful and lively again.

I've begun the process of looking into taking fitness next year, and my first step is catching up on some high school sciences. I knew I should have taken them. Oh well. So I'm not quite sure if I'm going to do adult learning or what yet, anyone have an suggestions??
So it's fitting that a new season is just starting, because a new season in my life is just starting. Last night I had a bit of a break down. Just because life has changed SO much.
I'll tell you guys but you're going to think I'm being pathetic.
First of all the girl I thought was my best friend starting dating a friend of ours. Which is cool, I don't really care if they date or not. BUT she didn't tell me, I found out they were dating through facebook. I truly thought we were best friends, and we shared important things with each other. But she didn't even tell me she liked him. If fact the week before they dated we were talking and she said she'd never date the guy. I felt betrayed. Maybe I made a big deal out of nothing. But we've hardly spoken since she started dating the guy. And to be honest I'm not really sure what I'd have to say to her. If she doesn't trust me with her life, can I trust her with mine?

To be honest ever since I've gotten back to school I've just been lonely. My crew of friends who hung out all the time last year... we're never together anymore. And I know i could just make new friends but part of me doesn't want to. I feel like everytime I get a solid group of friends something happens and we're not friends anymore and I have to start all over again. I'm tired of starting my life over. I just want some consistency in my life. I just want to know that the people I pour out my heart to are still going to be there the next month. I'm tired of feeling lonely, and feeling like I don't have a place where I belong.

Yet in the midst of this, I know I'm not alone. God really is here with me, and I know my life could be a billion times worse than what it is. Just sometimes the hurt of your own life seems so great that it's hard to keep everything in perspective.

But just like fall and winter last only I part of the year, I know that this season will not continue forever. It's just for a time.
Infinate x's and o's
-A

#FreshStartsandFreshDreams

Well hello all my blogger friends!

          It has been.... A LONG time since I last wrote. And a lot has happened since I last wrote. First of all I did build my own longboard this summer, which is totally sweet to say... but i wish i could say I used it more. I don't really know how to ride it so I don't. I'm a little nervous to embarass myself, but I need to get over that. As well I was supposed to be going to New york to participate in the Color Run but in the end it didn't work out for financial reasons. It was disappointing but I know that I can always do one in the future, so I'm looking forward to that.

        I truly had an amazing summer I learned a lot and experienced a lot. I spent time with some awesome friends of mine. And now I'm here back at school it feels so natural to be here and I'm excited for this new school year. I love the beginning of new things because I always feel like its a fresh start to be a better person than you were before. My goal for this year is to really take in everything I can during my classes, and you know what I'm excited my classes are really interesting, so I'm excited for where I'll be after them.

        Now I have something to share, and this covers the fresh dreams part of my title. You guys are the pretty much the first people I'll have shared this with. Which is odd to think about because I havent wanted to share it with people I know yet, and yet I'm posting it on a public site. Oh well go big or go home right??

        So I have been trying to figure out what it is that I want to do for my career, I'm in school you'd think I'd know if I'm spending money for my education but nope I really had no idea. And last year I realized I didn't know exactly what I wanted to do but I knew that what ever it was I wanted to help people find hope. Well this summer is when it all began. I was watching my all time favourite T.V. Show, Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, and the trainer on there is honestly my role model, he inspires me so much. If you've never seen the show, Chris Powell trains indivdual people for a year and helps morbidly obese people have a second chance at living. So people who are 500 lbs can lose up to 250 lbs. in one year. It's a mind blowing physical transformation, but the part that is more incredible than the physical transformation is the mental one. These individuals start this program thinking they're failures, they sometimes feel worthless, and often are holding a lot of emotional baggage, but throughout the year you see hope come into their lives and you see their self value rise, and life come back into them. It is so incredibly amazing to see this transformation. And this summer I said to myself if I could do anything in the world I would want to do what Chris Powell does, but I never really thought much of it, I didn't actually think I could or would ever be doing what Chris Powell does. But as the summer and the beginning of this school year progressed the desire to do that has only grown stronger in my heart. Now some of you might be thinking well if this is what you want go for it. And I would except you have to understand, I myself, am overweight. I can't just decide I want to go to school for Exercise Science and go for it. I'm not inshape enough to do it. But that has become my goal for this year. I want to be in shape enough that I can go to school for fitness, because I want to offer hope to others. and I think that if I can accomplish this goal I'll have a better understanding of what the people I'm trying to help go through because I have been overweight, and I have had to push myself to get into shape.

        Now I actually want to do something different than Chris, instead of helping individuals I want to trasnform families, through lifestyle coaching and training all of them not just one member of the family. I think families are so incredibly important and if the family is not on board with something it can be a burden on one person to try and change their lifestyle.

       Anyways thats where I am at now, I have a long way to go but I truly believe I could do this. But I'm going to need support from people, so please join me on this journey. Encourage me, and support me in this.

Infinite x's and o's
-A