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Sunday, September 23, 2012

Don't give up, Get up

Good afternoon all you beautiful people.

Fall has arrived, the cool weather has begun, leaves are changing color, it's a beautiful season. And yet there is this part of me that always gets sad when fall arrives. I guess it's because I watch as the leaves fall off the trees and it makes think they're dying. I know they aren't actually, and I know that it's just a season of their life and in a few months they'll be beautiful and lively again.

I've begun the process of looking into taking fitness next year, and my first step is catching up on some high school sciences. I knew I should have taken them. Oh well. So I'm not quite sure if I'm going to do adult learning or what yet, anyone have an suggestions??
So it's fitting that a new season is just starting, because a new season in my life is just starting. Last night I had a bit of a break down. Just because life has changed SO much.
I'll tell you guys but you're going to think I'm being pathetic.
First of all the girl I thought was my best friend starting dating a friend of ours. Which is cool, I don't really care if they date or not. BUT she didn't tell me, I found out they were dating through facebook. I truly thought we were best friends, and we shared important things with each other. But she didn't even tell me she liked him. If fact the week before they dated we were talking and she said she'd never date the guy. I felt betrayed. Maybe I made a big deal out of nothing. But we've hardly spoken since she started dating the guy. And to be honest I'm not really sure what I'd have to say to her. If she doesn't trust me with her life, can I trust her with mine?

To be honest ever since I've gotten back to school I've just been lonely. My crew of friends who hung out all the time last year... we're never together anymore. And I know i could just make new friends but part of me doesn't want to. I feel like everytime I get a solid group of friends something happens and we're not friends anymore and I have to start all over again. I'm tired of starting my life over. I just want some consistency in my life. I just want to know that the people I pour out my heart to are still going to be there the next month. I'm tired of feeling lonely, and feeling like I don't have a place where I belong.

Yet in the midst of this, I know I'm not alone. God really is here with me, and I know my life could be a billion times worse than what it is. Just sometimes the hurt of your own life seems so great that it's hard to keep everything in perspective.

But just like fall and winter last only I part of the year, I know that this season will not continue forever. It's just for a time.
Infinate x's and o's
-A

Monday, September 17, 2012

#FreshStartsandFreshDreams

Well hello all my blogger friends!

          It has been.... A LONG time since I last wrote. And a lot has happened since I last wrote. First of all I did build my own longboard this summer, which is totally sweet to say... but i wish i could say I used it more. I don't really know how to ride it so I don't. I'm a little nervous to embarass myself, but I need to get over that. As well I was supposed to be going to New york to participate in the Color Run but in the end it didn't work out for financial reasons. It was disappointing but I know that I can always do one in the future, so I'm looking forward to that.

        I truly had an amazing summer I learned a lot and experienced a lot. I spent time with some awesome friends of mine. And now I'm here back at school it feels so natural to be here and I'm excited for this new school year. I love the beginning of new things because I always feel like its a fresh start to be a better person than you were before. My goal for this year is to really take in everything I can during my classes, and you know what I'm excited my classes are really interesting, so I'm excited for where I'll be after them.

        Now I have something to share, and this covers the fresh dreams part of my title. You guys are the pretty much the first people I'll have shared this with. Which is odd to think about because I havent wanted to share it with people I know yet, and yet I'm posting it on a public site. Oh well go big or go home right??

        So I have been trying to figure out what it is that I want to do for my career, I'm in school you'd think I'd know if I'm spending money for my education but nope I really had no idea. And last year I realized I didn't know exactly what I wanted to do but I knew that what ever it was I wanted to help people find hope. Well this summer is when it all began. I was watching my all time favourite T.V. Show, Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition, and the trainer on there is honestly my role model, he inspires me so much. If you've never seen the show, Chris Powell trains indivdual people for a year and helps morbidly obese people have a second chance at living. So people who are 500 lbs can lose up to 250 lbs. in one year. It's a mind blowing physical transformation, but the part that is more incredible than the physical transformation is the mental one. These individuals start this program thinking they're failures, they sometimes feel worthless, and often are holding a lot of emotional baggage, but throughout the year you see hope come into their lives and you see their self value rise, and life come back into them. It is so incredibly amazing to see this transformation. And this summer I said to myself if I could do anything in the world I would want to do what Chris Powell does, but I never really thought much of it, I didn't actually think I could or would ever be doing what Chris Powell does. But as the summer and the beginning of this school year progressed the desire to do that has only grown stronger in my heart. Now some of you might be thinking well if this is what you want go for it. And I would except you have to understand, I myself, am overweight. I can't just decide I want to go to school for Exercise Science and go for it. I'm not inshape enough to do it. But that has become my goal for this year. I want to be in shape enough that I can go to school for fitness, because I want to offer hope to others. and I think that if I can accomplish this goal I'll have a better understanding of what the people I'm trying to help go through because I have been overweight, and I have had to push myself to get into shape.

        Now I actually want to do something different than Chris, instead of helping individuals I want to trasnform families, through lifestyle coaching and training all of them not just one member of the family. I think families are so incredibly important and if the family is not on board with something it can be a burden on one person to try and change their lifestyle.

       Anyways thats where I am at now, I have a long way to go but I truly believe I could do this. But I'm going to need support from people, so please join me on this journey. Encourage me, and support me in this.

Infinite x's and o's
-A

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

#checkthatoffmybucketlist

HEY,

Alright, so life is crazy busy! I thought I was busy at school with working a part time job and being a full time student with all those assignments and everything. BUT being home is even BUSIER!
For those of you who don't know, I have four sisters and one brother,

Here is a beautiful picture of us!

I feel like this picture really captures our personalities! Haha! I'm the ginger one in the middle!

My oldest sister has moved off to work at a camp for the summer, and so this past month has been a combination of work, and helping my mom and dad take care of my four younger siblings. I love doing it, and I love being able to help out. But it has been crazy busy. So much running around and getting everyone where they need to be. And now it is the end of the school year, and we're very grateful that everything will calm down for the summer.
Some exciting news though, my sister just younger than me, has also moved away from home for the first time this summer. She is also working at a camp. I think it is going to be an incredible experience for her.

So now that I've given you an update on my family life lets move on to what really excites you guys! Life and all the incredible amazing things that happen in life. So I called this entry check that off my bucket list because thats what I'm doing this summer! I'm getting to check stuff off my bucketlist!

So it's almost a month ago now that I donated blood for the first time! Which was something that I REALLY wanted to do. I was really nervous going there, I really don't like needles. And everyone kept telling me, you don't have to do this if you don't want to. But I told them NO I WANT TO DO THIS, and I don't care how scared I am I'm going to do it! and you know what I did it, and it was an incredible experience.

The blood donor clinic that I went do was actually held in honor of a local boy that needs tranfusions, Elijah is only four years old, and I got to meet him, his 6 month old sister and both his parents who were so grateful that me and my sister came. It was such a joyful experience, and I STRONGLY recommend going and donating blood if you are capable, because it really is a chance to change someone's life.

As well I've bought all the supplies to build my longboard and now I'm just needing sometime to actually put it together but thats something I'll get to check off my list, I'm going to New York in August to participate in the Color Run! And so that is also something I will be able to check off my bucket list! I'm super excited about all the stuff I'm actually doing that I said I wanted to do! So I'm going to include an updated version of my bucketlist, I hope you guys are actually taking steps to doing the stuff you really want to do in your life because it is so worth it! Remember you really do only live once, but if you do it right... once is enough!
Infinite x's and o's
-A

Here's my updated list:

1.) Go Camping and Cook food over a fire

2.) Witness a Miracle

3.) Get Married

4.) Start my own Business/organization

5.) Get a stamp on my passport from every country

6.) Go paintballing

7.) Go to Times Square on New Years Eve and watch as the ball drops

8.) Fly a small plane

~~9.) Donate Blood~~ (May 25th, 2012)

10.) Own a jeep

11.) Write on the before I die wall

12.) Bike the entire Niagara Escarpment

13.) Travel through a jungle on an elephant

14.) Go Surfing

15.) Kayak part of the Nile River

16.) Attend an Olympic event

17.) Learn how to Sail

18.) Go Longboarding in California

19.) Make My own Longboard

20.) Shake hands with someone who has truly changed a country

21.)Road trip to California

22.) Go see the super bowl or world cup of soccer live

23.) Have 1000 followers on Twitter

24.) Own a Mac

25.) Own a pair of Toms

26.) Own a pair of Christian Louboutin Shoes

27.) Crash a wedding

28.) Donate my hair

29.) Live/work in Toronto

30.) Longboard on the costal highway

31.) Teach someone to read

32.) Have a child

33.) Donate money and have my name on something, a college scholarship, a bench in the park, HOSPITAL WING ect.

34.) Speak at a youth convention

35.) Go Golfing

36.) Run a 5k race

37.)Plant a tree and carve my name in it

38.) Participate in a tough mudder

39.) Participate in the Color Run

40.) Go Sailing on the Mediterranean Sea.

41.) Receive an award

42.) Run through a giant farm sprinkler

Thursday, May 24, 2012

#onelife

HEY GUYS!
It’s been so long since I’ve written and I sincerely apologize!

So just a little update on my life, I am currently living at home again, seeing as school is out for summer! And since coming home I have been extremely blessed by God in the job area of my life. I have received full time employment at my church working in the Children’s department. As well I talked to my previous boss and she has welcomed me back onto staff to work as a lifeguard this summer again. And as a full time student the more money I can make the better.

So I have been thinking lately and just realizing how incredibly short life is. And more than that the reality of not being able to go back and do things over again is really hitting me. And as I come to this realization it is making me really want to take every opportunity given to me. Because who knows if I will ever have this chance again. For instance looking back at my high school years I really wish I had gotten more involved. You know been on a sports team, or student council, or somehow found a way to be involved because now I am realizing that those things I can NEVER have the opportunity to do again. Which is sad but that’s in the past and there is no point in dwelling on that instead I need to learn from that.

So that makes me think for my life and all the things I want to do in my life I really need to get going on those things. Because I don’t want to be old and wrinkled and look back on my life and wish I had done more, I want to get to the end of my life and truly be able to say I have lived a full life.

So what is it you guys want to do with your one, precious, incredible, but short life?
Drop me a line!

Infinite x’s and o’s

-A

Monday, May 7, 2012

#tipsforsuccess

So my 21st birthday is coming up in a week and a half. And I was thinking seeing as I want to be successful, I mean we all want to be successful right? So I figured I would share a list of 21 tips for success. I look at this list to help motivate and inspire me to work towards a more successful life.

1.) Marry the right person. This one decision will determine 90% of your happiness or misery
2.) Work at something you enjoy and thats worthy of your time and talent
3.) Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully
4.) Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know
5.) Be forgiving of others and yourself
6.) Be generous
7.) Have a grateful heart
8.) Persistence, Persistence, Persistence
9.) Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary
10.) Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated
11.) Commit yourself to constant improvement
12.) Commit yourself to quality
13.) Understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power or prestige. But on relationships with people you love and respect
14.) Be Loyal
15.) Be honest
16.) Be a self starter
17.) De decisive even if it means you'll sometimes be wrong
18.) Stop blaming others, take responsibility for every area of your life
19.) Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did
20. Take good care of those you love
21. Don't do anything that wouldn't make your mom proud!

So what do you guys do to become more successful? Leave a comment!
Infinite x's and o's
- A

Thursday, April 19, 2012

#dontstopbelieving

It's been a little while since I last wrote. But it's been busy. I had my major papers due, and then BAM now it's exam time! It's like one thing after another. Most of the time I love to be busy, I love to always be on the go. But lately I don't really want to be DOING so much, instead I just want to spend all my time being with people. Socializing is kinda my thing.
I have a confession to make, until this past year I had never studied for an exam, EVER! But I started studying for my exams this year simply because all my friends were and I wanted to spend time with my friends so I would just suggest studying together so I could spend time with them, and they could get their studying done. HAHA!

ANYWAYS! I titled this blog entry 'Don't Stop Believing' because lately things haven't really been working out the way I want them to. Desires that I have, dreams that I've had for my life... things just haven't gone the way I wanted them to. It's been an extremely disappointing month. Full of let downs. But this entry isn't to talk about how upset I am. Because I've spent enough time in self pity over this, and I don't need anyone else feeling bad for me. Instead I want this to be encouraging.

Because who in their life hasn't had a let down? Or some disappointing moment in their life? Reality is, we don't always get what we want. (Which might be the hardest thing for me right now, I'm used to getting what I want, one way or another) So when those moments of disappoint come, you're faced with a choice. Are you going to allow these things to stop you from chasing after your dream? OR are you going to allow them to push you harder? These let downs can make you work harder to get your dream. It can fuel the passion and desire in your heart. But you need to make that choice. I needed to make that choice. Am I going to allow myself to be held back? No! I can't! My dreams are bigger than this! And I'm not going to let something that happened for a small season of my life, stop me from living the rest of my life! And I hope you guys will make the same decision.

Some of my plans for this next year aren't going to be working out... BUT that just means I have time for something new. Something that I am not expecting. And hopefully that something is amazing. (Because I could really use some happy news in my life right now) But even if its not amazing, I am going to live my life to the absolute fullest.

Don't stop dreaming, and DO NOT stop believing in those dreams!
infinite x's and o's

Allysin

Friday, April 6, 2012

Before I die...

All the time
I'm always saying I want to ________ before I die. and i always come up with all these different things that I want to do before I die. So finally I decided I would just make a bucket list so I can actually keep track of all these things. So here is my bucket list!
(This is not in any particular order)